is this the way...?

its this feeling of loneliness, of sadness that does not seem to go away.

more oft than not, when life steps in a different direction, its quite difficult for me to follow because it means stepping out of my comfort zone and venturing into someplace which is rather unknown. and yet sometimes when i am up to it, i seize it as a challenge, and work my way through.

no, not this time. i give up.

i am just too tired to work it through. no, no longer.i am not the person i used to be.
i am worn out from being a punching bag upon which i take a daily beating.no, i am not going to blame myself anymore.i am through with it, and perhaps when punching is no longer the trend, then only can i start to be content once more.

until then,this is who i am, not the person i was, not the person i used to be.