dilemma

as we know there are things that we cannot see
and certain things that are just not meant to be
but somehow i wonder if this is a test
for now my mind is unable to rest
how things were before it is not the same now
and it hurts me bad someway somehow
i wish that i could see what the future holds for me
and give me back my sanity
i am currently torn between one and two
tell me now, my heart belongs to who?

i know i love one and he loves me too
but i feel so guilty because i think about number two
what type of choice am i supposed to make
inevitably someone's heart is going to break
im scared its mine because its been broken before
and i told myself my heart will break no more
i feel so selfish, and terrible inside
but feelings are something you just cannot fight
i am at a dilemma unsure of what to do
this roller coaster makes me feel like a fool

my heart skips a beat when i see them
it happens all the time, no matter where or when
you see my feelings are equally divided
at least for now its not one sided
i cry when i hear love songs on the radio
its not that simple, it really isn't so

for this moment now i'll try to deny
whatever the feelings that i have for this guy
i'll look at this situation with a smile
and everything will be worth its while