i believe, its up to you

one day i just woke up and realise, "life is good". i mean, one of my contact on msn had put up as her personal message

when someone says life is hard, i always ask, "compared to what?"

i am not saying that i have an absolutely perfect life, but when i think about it, i am very lucky, compared to some people i know. i have a group of really,really good friends who are always there for me.i have a caring immediate family who i know cares about me and loves me in every way possible.not forgetting my cousins,how many people can really say that they are close to theirs?furthermore, i have two of the greatest life supports that a girl could ever ask for, sam and min.i have a loving boyfriend who i have been with for close to two years aready, how many people can say that their relationships at my age has lasted for so long?

a few entries back, i did write about how i thought i was having feelings for another guy, but i finally understood. he and i have so much in common and we are like mirror images of each others personality.how often can you find someone like that?i think perhaps i saw so much of myself in him thats why.but the best thing is, we re good friends, and frankly,that alone, is enough.

sometimes, i may feel down , or a bit blue.but i am never like that for very long.no matter what, there is always someone around to help me get back on my own two feet. no matter what people may think or say about me, i used to care and give damn once upon a time.but what for?it isn't worth it.

if God brings you to it, He will bring you THROUGH it

at the end of the day,i know that i cannot stop people from saying things or think a certain way. i can't,i am after all, not God.i am just a normal person, trying to get through the days with a breeze and if i allow others to pull me down, i very well can't do that, can i?
the thing is, i prefer to keep quiet and let life sort itself out.unless of couse, i cant stand it already. perhaps that is why sometimes i let others get the better of me, but its okay.

to those who complain of their miserable childhood,their endless string of abusive boyfriends and about how life is never fair to them?
i believe that loving yourself makes a lot of difference.and having people around to love you as well, helps tremendously.

why do i bother when i know that i'll end up like this

sometimes i wonder why i even bother.
why do i even bother feeling happy or excited, why do i even bother to think about what and how things are going to be like.
i wish sometimes that i was an introvert so that i dont really care about who i know and who i dont know.
i'll just keep to myself and not say a word and not give a damn, and i will be fine with that.
but no, of course not, its not meant to be,i am who i am, and unfortunately i am the type of person that can't hide her emotions easily and so here i am a total wreck.
if only my feelings come equiped with a switch that i can easily flick 'on' or 'off' at will, but no, of course, its not possible.
some may do these way much better than others but no, its not that way for me.i envy all of you who could do so because life, i think, will be easier to tolerate.
i wish that i have never gone through the day that leads all the way to how things are now.i wish that i have never met certain people and i wish that things had not changed so drastically to the way things are now.
wishes dont come true, especially when they are concerned with ammending the past. i have dreams but whether they will come true is an entirely different thing altogether. they come true when i least expect them to and sometimes, they come true at the wrong time.
why do i get myself into trouble like this, its the same old story all over again.
i want to stop making a fool out of myself, i feel as if i am the biggest fool already.you will want what you can't have, but to me, its worse because when i want something, i'll do anything to get it. and i wont stop til i do. and in the process, i'll end up hurting myself and others and then what happens?
i cant force circumstances and i cant manipulate things to make them suit my way.
it takes two to tango and i hope with all my heart that one day he will ask me to dance.
but until then?
i'll continue to dream because what i feel are here for a reason and i think i owe it to myself not to deny my own feelings anymore.

i am a good kisser it seems...

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

i like kissing, i think it is the ultimate expression of love or the ultimate way to say "Look, i am really attracted to you". Sex to me is rather messy i think , but i stand firm to what i believe in and that kissing is better :) somehow its different you know, i mean, there is that attraction there and then so of course the first thing you'd want to do is to kiss that person you are attracted to..and providing that person has a good technique, then lucky you..
sometimes i look at certain guys and i wonder if they can kiss well...but i would never know isn't it?its not as bad as those who think "hm,how are they in bed.." but then again this is my opinion..sometimes i wonder how it will be like if i can kiss someone i am really attracted to..will i get those "shivers" running down my spine as they so oft say in romantic novels?

you don't need makeup to look good..well..not lots of it anyway

last saturday i was coerced into taking a studio photo..lets just say that when i did it i DID not want to do it and while the lady was applying the make up i felt even worse because the foundation was so damn white and thick! anyway, my photos turned out okay i really liked one in particular..so my friend and i removed parts of our make up , she removed her eyeshadow while i kept it on..when we took our photo again later on that day, i think we look much much better...haha...