if i told you i am not worried, i would be lying

currently i am on a 3 months holiday to recharge my batteries before i start a new year of law school. its been fun doing a few things namely
1. trip back to sarawak to attend the rainforest world music festival
2. loitering around the house with absolutely nothing to do
3. waking up at ridiculous times and sleeping in the wee hours of the morning
4. watching the telly til i didnt want to watch it anymore
5. cleaning my room since the beginning of the holidays AND its still not neat
6. going out without any feeling of guilt whatsoever

but what bugs me the most at the moment? its this nagging feeling at the back of my mind, this little cloud in my silver lining that i have yet another hurdle to face once i am through the holidays.

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RESULTS

i think its so cruel to do this. we can't really have a proper holiday in that sense where we can just let go and not worry about a thing. how the hell do you expect us to enjoy ourselves for three whole months when we know that at the end of three months we have to face the results of our intermediate exams!?

IT'S NOT A HOLIDAY!

its so mean, seriously! its so so SO SO SO mean!

the person who came up with this concept is just a big ol meanie *grr*

whenever i think about the dreaded day, i'll just break out in cold sweat and my breathing becomes shallow..my face goes all pale and my hands starts to feel clammy and cold. it is confirmed, i am a nervous wreck when it comes to thinking about the outcome of my results. what irritates me the most is when you go to collect the results from the college, there will be people who will be jumping up and down with joy, and the very same annoying people will come and BOMBARD you with "what did you get huh?".

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS DAMMIT *grr*

another group of people that really irritates me are those who actually got really good results but they mope around as if they have failed just cuz "its not what they expected" *screams with frustration*

if you have that kind of mentality when there are others who are much worse off then you, then i think you do not deserve to get the grade then..

imagine?

what if i fail? *eyes widen in horror*

no no.. *tries to think positively*

be positive

be positive

be positive

BE POSITIVE

*ugh*

excuse me while i go hyperventilate