grey area

dear pha,
i had a dream of the both of us and in my dream we did all the things we usually do when we meet up.

we met at the same place.
you drove.
and had dinner at the last place we went to.

but strangely enough, after that..
So what you wanna do now?
I wanna go home.

i can't help but feel a bit disturbed by this though..
cuz i do miss you loads when i don't receive your msgs BUT i know for a fact that we are DEFINITELY not suited to be with each other as a couple.

i do find it strange that after i have been out with you, i feel like i have the need to know how you actually feel about me
What are we?
I don't know.

its just fine then. because i myself don't know as well.
i just hate this blur line of best friend to boy friend to just being friends.
i wish i knew. but then again, im glad i dont.