take a bow. shows over.

i had a dream about you last night, and we were both so happy.
like as though the incident in Feb was long forgotten and forgiven.
it was just like good times, like old times. talking, sharing, laughing, exploring.
we were talking, catching up on the missing pieces of each others lives
you'd smile at me and it made me happy that we were finally friends again.

and then i woke up to reality.
am i kidding myself? yes.
because the only way it would go back to that is if i fall for your smile and your charm once again.
no. you put me through hell.
for weeks i was haunted by your every move, your every word, your every gesture, your every everything.

if you didn't treat me that way that night-we'd still be the best of friends.
and we'd still be talking. sharing. laughing. exploring.
now there is this massive void between us.

i do wish you the best.im so over all that hate and anger.