damn nervous la wei. like stomach churning breaking out in cold sweat weak legs kinda nervous.
i knew i shouldn't have skipped yoga AGAIN. maybe all of the stretching and twisting would be just right to straighten up all my knotted nerves.
you know, im so uptight that it does not even bother me that the bf has not msged me for one whole day.
*edit*
i got other things to worry about.
forgiven, sayang.
its the last day of june, my hols started earlier this month. so its been roughly a month of not doing..anything? true, i didn't intend on doing anything at all this hols, but as time goes by really really slowly...its just more than i can bear, honestly..
im gonna have to take a passport photo later for work tomorro though..i procrastinate till the very last minute, my god..joycey tells me that the photo people do some work on the photo before printing it out..but really, do they do that? how kind!
im just gonna slather on concealer anyways, to be safe *sigh*
there are 3 people im expecting to hear from today.. and ExBfNo3 is one of them.
can't wait to catch up over lunch!
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so its currently 11 pm, and the countdown to working begins..nerves, my dear, be calm..
i didnt have a very good day. ExBfNo3 called me back only after two hours. i know, i shouldnt be so uptight about it but he made me wait sooo long, and i didnt want to have anything to eat because i was unsure as to what my lunch plans are going to be. why i bothered waiting? its because he had some errands to run before he could confirm our lunch plans, but i know for a fact that his msg could have come earlier.and there i go again. waiting for a guy.
i couldnt handle not having my kawan kawan around me so i actually went to my car in the parking lot and tried my best not to cry.
imagine? i get myself a pair of shoes and walk around one u looking at the phone sooo often that had anyone studied me closely, they would think i was being stood up.
waiting for my lunch date to call. (busy with errands)
waiting for my bf to msg me with his usual "hey, what you do?" (in class)
waiting for the best friend who flew in from UK to msg me cuz ive been waiting to hear from him ever since knowing he's back.(out to lunch, etc etc..dont blame him, after all he just got back..)
abit disappointing la really.
most disappointing was the fact that deep down, i knew this is not how i wanted to spend the day.
finally i couldnt stand it,i cried in the car.
really, i am not shy to say that i shed a few tears in the comfort of my car, and gave kiko a call blasting him with a torrent of "why-haven't-you-msg-me" and a dash of "i've-been-waiting-for-my-ex-to-msg-me-for-nearly-3-freaking-hours"
i hate it when he makes me feel better.
means ive caved in.
i wanted to be all kelly-clarkson-independent-woman-type you know, and initial plan was to ignore him for one whole day.
tit for tat, you know, i dont get your msgs, you wont get mine too *hmph*
but i can't.
i just needed him at that point.
however.
i received the msg from ExBfNo3 at 2.
i only replied at 530.
see how HE likes it, waiting for 3 freaking hours.
then much later on, i felt bad.
"i'm sorry i replied so late. had a bad day"
sigh.
so we talked awhile..when suddenly
"hey, i call you later, okay? im going out now, im really sorry la wei"
wtf.
"you know that is like the third time you said you'll call me..don't say things you don't mean"
seee?
so full of benci-ness.
kiko tells me to rest.
i tell him im excited about going to work..its like going back to school :)
i hope for all the best!
and like my peers and kawans, ill try to blog about my experiences as well as i can :)
good night.
ending the post with a happy note.
*round of orange juice for all!*
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