woohoooo
come 1st July il be experiencing new things, in a place which (on first impression) seems to be very impressive.
i have been very adamant to those (who are willing to listen, of course) that i don't ever wanna grow up.
when i grow up, i wanna be a kid
i like being a student, it leaves my days free to do as i wish provided of course i don't totally leave my books to rot in the gutter. this realisation arose after i had worked for 5 months in a place where the job was really causing my IQ to further decrease. eventhough it paid well, it was the type of job that only robots will enjoy doing, seeing as it was so mechanical.
i really pity those who work as admin assistants. if their job is anything like how mine was, lets just say im upping the pity quotient an additional 50%.
ever since then, i told myself being a student is way better than this.
however, one day as i was preaching how great it is to be at the age we are now, someone said yes, but everyone has to grow up sometime. you will look pretty silly if ur still a professional student at 40.
i have been very adamant to those (who are willing to listen, of course) that i don't ever wanna grow up.
when i grow up, i wanna be a kid
i like being a student, it leaves my days free to do as i wish provided of course i don't totally leave my books to rot in the gutter. this realisation arose after i had worked for 5 months in a place where the job was really causing my IQ to further decrease. eventhough it paid well, it was the type of job that only robots will enjoy doing, seeing as it was so mechanical.
i really pity those who work as admin assistants. if their job is anything like how mine was, lets just say im upping the pity quotient an additional 50%.
ever since then, i told myself being a student is way better than this.
however, one day as i was preaching how great it is to be at the age we are now, someone said yes, but everyone has to grow up sometime. you will look pretty silly if ur still a professional student at 40.
considered my bubble burst.yes, deep deep deep deep deep deep down deeper than the deepest downest of my being, i know is a truth we all can't run away from.
*tying on me running shoes*
my reason for not wanting to grow up is because of the lack of familiarity. that adults seem to become grey when they start working. i don't ever wanna become grey! they sit in offices all day on a comfy cushioned chair with the aircon blasting at its maximum..
havoc on skin, havoc on the butt.
id be graduating in a few months time. its so fast. time to finish writing the last few chapters of Geri The Student, and moving on to a draftwork of Geri The Working Adult.
starting a new chapter, is starting all over again.
from learning so much to be placed in a situation where you know nothing once again. therefore lies my downfall which is where i have this fear of looking like a total and complete idiot in a situation where i don't have a clue as to what is going on.
and that if i ask, the person on the receiving end will think im being annoying.
but the more i think about it, the more it makes sense.
its all because i am no longer in control of the situation. i don't know what the others around me are thinking, i don't know how these people are like..so it is natural to feel intimidated by it all.
it should obviously not hinder me from learning as much as i can, correct?
everyone has to start somewhere, one cannot expect to go straight to the top when ur still a little fresh thing, isn't it? i was told, once..
the easier it is to go to the top, the easier it is to fall
its okay. i rather pay my dues now, and take each step slowly.
falling down causes bruises which takes forever to go away.
falling down causes bruises which takes forever to go away.
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