i dont hear from him, and im beyond trying to be patient.
i get upset, which results in me making frantic calls.
and when my calls go unanswered, i cry and i cry and i think of the worst things ever.
he's lost interest.
he's found someone new.
he's trying to be kind to me by making me move on first.
then i cry and cry and cry.
i get chest pains and my eyes are sore.
then i finally hear from him.
its either an admonishment for being impatient.
a brief "hey, im sorry, was busy"
and my tears dry up instantly.
its the power ive inadvertently allowed him to have over me.
its the same old shit.
rinse and repeat.
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