i feel like a tiny mushroom

when i hear or see the results of other people's hard work.

not feeling envious or anything but hearing and seeing what they can do just makes me feel so so tiny.

i found out over dinner, a friend of mine had done 6 subjects for STPM. 

SIX.

but you know something?

you can only take a maximum of 5 papers.

i did 4 only okay!

his cgpa? 3.93.

(max is 4.00)

erm.

don't bother asking me about my cgpa la ok.

i'm not THAT hardworking.

another thing that makes me feel so small is seeing some of my fellow classmates with their compressed notes.

i see them flipping through their own notes and i feel incredibly nervous. cuz in order to do short notes, you have to have already read that particular area at least twice.

i see my competition right before my very own eyes.

even some of those people who make so much noise in class are apparently going to study at the library before evening class for 6 hours.

there are a group of people that i know who goes to a library to study, every day.

feeling incredibly tiny now.