geri's resolution

today i woke up and i looked at myself in the mirror.
the person staring back at me had messed up hair, sleepy eyes and seriously oily skin.
at that point in time i had a lot of things running through my mind but the one thing that was most prominent was

"i must try not to talk bad about others anymore"

i guess everyone does it, its human nature to say something about another person. i know that petty gossip and idle chatter (usually about someone else) can lead to a lot of terrible things, so why do we even bother to do so anyway?
out of envy? for me sometimes when i see someone really beautiful, i try to find her one flaw that doesn't make her beautiful anymore. but isn't that sad, cuz that is something that comes almost automatically.
most of the time we are said to be blinded by another person's beauty but in fact, it is not the beauty that makes us blind, no, it is the envy that we feel..

from the beginning of time, beautiful people have been always put first because they are more pleasant to look at, and perhaps this is the reason why this envy is in existence by the other not so beautiful people? sounds pitifully shallow, yes, but with all due respect it is the bare truth is it not? then again, they did not ask for these so-called good looks isnt it? of course it made life abit easier for them but still i believe they have to deal with more criticism than others because there will be more people bitching about them to no end.

but this problem is not just stuck to only beautiful people. when i say that i'll try to make a conscious effort to have positive thoughts about people, i am also talking about all those who i no longer talk to because of some misunderstanding we had previously in the past. however there is a part of me that is reluctant to let go completely and be on speaking terms to those people again but i think i shall try to be a bit less cruel in my thoughts and in my words with regards to them.

so i think from now on i shall try to make a conscious effort to be a little bit more pleasant with what goes on in my head.

after all, making peace with oneself is the first step to making peace with others.