ah,feels good...

to be back..after so so so long...
so, exams are over, and now i have till august to hibernate at home..thats like about..2 months?
what im thinking at the mo' is that 2 months is a LONG time when you are doing nothing, and yet its really really short if you apply for a part time job..
so...
what should i do huh?


okay, i need to digress.

WHAT
THE HELL
WERE THE EXAMINERS THINKING
WHEN THEY SET THE PAPER!!!!!!???????????????????????

it was tough....aaaa.....
no la, it was very very tricky,no?
for tort, supposedly one of the easier topics got me reading the paper inside out, TRYING to look for the questions we all were accustomed to..it was like they came up with things no one thought they would ask... how can?! *flails arms about wildly*
no need to say anything about evidence, or land, or trust.
HOW COULD YOU NOT SET A QUESTION ABOUT CHARITIES ACT, man?!
and how could you leave a question about Jameel out too? (note, that this is not in bold because i didn't prepare for it :D )

day-mmnn.....

ok.
i know what im gonna have to do now then..
im gunnah spend mah two months studyin' and 'ope for the best

sunday
11th march, 2007.
blog had to be closed down temporarily due to some unforeseen circumstances.

its only natural to be interested in the enemy

i dont like confrontation, so i'll keep my comments to myself.

but shame on you on being such a gossipy tell-all

and to you? i may not have understood it then, but i see things in a clearer view now. thanks, for doing what you did. you may have gained a friend out of my loss, but all i see is just a way of making space in my life for those who matters.

so if i sounded bitter when you heard it, i was, but not at the time when you heard it.
after all, it must seem to be pretty nice to have friends now, when you didnt have any back then.

so there.

i rest my case.

how does it feels like to be invisible?

it feels nice, sometimes.

i never really liked to wear my glasses. its okay when your power low and if you only need to wear it because you can't see the board or something..i have been using glasses since i was 10 years old no thanks to my insane fondness for books. ...

i've always tried to imagine how my life would be like if i had taken better care of my eyes, perhaps not to read so much, not to read in dark dark places, not to stare at the computer till my eyes become red...
my eyesight is pretty bad,evidenced by my thick lenses even though its the special kind where its supposed to be thinner then the ordinary lens. furthermore, i have always thought that i looked pretty different with them on because of the overall image a pair of glasses gives.

so yeah, i've never really liked wearing em.

but they can come in handy when you just wanna blend in with the faceless throng of people..when i just dont give a damn about whether my hair is combed properly or if i have a wrinkle-free shirt on...when i wanna walk through the entrance of centerpoint and not be accosted by the bloody fucking idiots standing there.

so the bottomline is?

being invisible when you want to, is pretty darn fine by me.

has it been a year already?

i remember last year you had a birthday party at eastin, and so many of your friends and family came to celebrate with you...this year why so quiet, eh?

hehe..what a huge change from last year, yes? from the people we hang out with, and the people we thought we knew...but 'nuff of that, things are way much better now, you know what i'm talking about :)

it just sucks that your birthday happens to be on the first day of mocks,but its okay :) *lol*
you have yet to receive a present from me, but you could've come to OneU yesterday so that i can give it to you..so now you have to wait for saturday heheh...

happy birthday to you joycey, the girl with a monstrous appetite, the loudest laugh, and the warmest heart *hugs*

the question is.......

SHOULD GERI GO FOR MOCKS?

i honestly don't know.
whats the point of going anyway?
i wouldn't know how to answer the questions, because i haven't really been studying.

BESIDES...

i have yet to get my earlier exam papers (which incidentally was for the mocks in december).


most of the people i know are thinking of not going, some have already decided that they wouldn't go. which makes lots of sense!



ARGH.
i still can't make my mind up *sob*


you know why?
cuz i'd feel pretty guilty. if i were to stay at home, what would i do?

1. STAYING AT HOME
a. sleep
b. watch telly
c. do some chores around the house since i cant sit still
d. go online
e. study (which will eventually end up with me going back to option 1)


BAD IDEA.

how about if i ACTUALLY went for the exam?

2. SIT FOR EXAM
a. wake up early, around 8.
b. endure a 20 minute ride to town
c. pay 5 bucks for parking
d. pretend i know what i m writing for 3 hours during the exam
e. endure a 30 minute drive home in the middle of the afternoon

and above all that still continue doing chores etc etc.


EVEN WORSE THAN IDEA No. 1!

ugh.
somebody. help me.

oh how forgetful art thou~

with so many things happening, i just remembered that i forgot to write about my chinese new year.

i know that i did ramble on earlier about how i disliked going back, but from what i observe, things do get better year by year. perhaps its because the cousins are growing up, and that the aunties become more lenient. as a matter of fact, i was pretty much left alone, no interrogations whatsoever and that made spending new year a little bit more bearable :)

lets see..we went back on chinese new years eve. YES. on the EVE itself and usually what will take around 3 to 4 hours escalated into nearly sitting in the car for TEN HOURS.

yes.
you read corectly.
TEN HOURS.
600 minutes.
no kidding.
my butt became significantly flatter, i swear.
we arrived JUST in time for dinner.halfway through i felt dizzy, i guess its because i only had a salad for lunch so my sugar levels were pretty low. i can't understand how people can eat only salads for lunch, give me a good ol burger anytime ^__^

comparitively, i preferred the new year lunch, because i think the quality of the food was much better.and its SO cheap! for around 8 dishes or so, each table accomodating 10 people costs around 299 ringgit only! wah, imagine if it was in kl...surely it'll be 2x more, no? the dishes kept on coming till the cousins could only mutter "please, no more...".

O_O
YOU KNOW YOU HAVE REACHED THE LIMIT WHEN KIDS START REFUSING GOOD FOOD
anyhoo...i think chinese new year is the only time when relatives get the chance to fatten each other up (like as though we won't be eating for the rest of the year liddat)
YOU KNOW SOMETHING IS WRONG WHEN THE KIDS START GRABBING AT THE VEGETABLES
because eating meat ONLY can cause SEVERE constipation. so many types of meat!
chicken
beef
pork
fish
prawn
HUH.
even the vegetable got some MEAT in it T_T"""

cousins from my dad's side

________________________________________________________

ANYWAY...
have you heard of a fountain occuring when you put mentos in a bottle full of coke?
my cousin did, and became obssessed to see if it really was true


so the boy asked his dad to buy a roll of mentos to try it out. the thing is, it will only work if it is a newly opened bottle, not one that has been sitting in the refrigerator. and preferably a full bottle, not one that is half full. so he put one in.
tak jadi
and then another
nothing happens
and then...


needless to say, it didnt work. all the elements were wrong!


the poor boy kept on looking at the bottle,shaking it...huh, his disappointment was so great that even I felt sorry for him..

while everyone, on new year is

gambling...

playing mahjong...

an interrogation was going on...


luckily i was spared..it was a better new year because i just sat there and minded my own business while everyone else minded other people's business...
hm :) i wonder what would happen if she asked me the same question and i replied negatively?



actually, i don't really care also lah :D

OI EXAMS ARE NEAR

its so so scary.
its so scary when the revision schedules are out. its as if someone had ran into the room, naked, with the words
"OI, YOUR EXAMS ARE NEAR!"
in bright red painted all over.

its scary. so, so very scary.
law of trusts is incomprehensible.
evidence has so many intertwining statutes it reminds me of snakes when they're mating.
tort is still manageable.
land law concerns dispute over vast amounts of dirt.

*whacks head*
yeah, you see the type of lousy attitude i have towards my studies.
"you see, you have that kind of opinion towards your studies, OF COURSE you're gonna struggle no?"
so the guilty conscience, (lets call her Tangerine) says.
damn.
law, has turned my passion for reading into a neccessity.i no longer read because i want to, but because i have to, i must!
which sucks completely because somehow my body responds negatively to force being applied.
i have to make sure i can sit down at the table and do my revision notes properly. forget that my attention is of the short span variety. forget that i've skipped classes before, forget having to endure lectures while sitting way behind. forget that my notes are currently in a mess. forget that sometimes i don't jot the the dates on some of my lecture notes.
forget all that.
i know that in order to redeem myself, i have to make it work.
and i have to start that effort now, i guess. *winks*

there are days where i feel so lost,so helpless, so useless. have you ever felt that way?
i feel like just staying in bed, hidden under my covers with a bottle of water and tissues to wipe away the silent tears that continues to fall and fall...
the problem with me is that i tend to overthink, and i guess my dilemmas are self created...i do have people to talk to but sometimes i know how it is like to be on the other end,listening to another persons problems and i dont want to seem as if i am being a burden.so what do i do?
i keep it all inside, bottled up. suffer silently, and wait for the phase to be over so that i'll be free of this mental exhaustion.its rather tiring to be depressed and not let it out because there is so much negative energy which is being held up...
sometimes i don't tell the boyfriend what is happening becase i dont want him to feel as if he has this problematic girlfriend who over-emo at times...but if i don't tell him, then who do i talk to? my life supports are in UK, Ireland, Paris..

the more i think about upcoming exams, the more petrified i become.i have been unable to fall asleep easily lately, and my days get shorter and shorter...am i stressed out because of exams? no, not really.this is my problem, i dont even know what it is that is making me so upset.



best for me to stay under my blanket with the lights off and fall asleep when i can no longer handle the exhaustion and the toll it is taking on me

TWENTIETH OF FEBRUARY

SO far behind on the updates, gosh..
but first....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN! you are so so far away from me now, and that we hardly talk nowadays but its okay, right? from the first time we spoke till the day we became really really close friends, you have always been the absolute perfect gentleman. we may disagree at times but i have always always treasured your friendship, the one person i know who i can count on to create a smile from a frown, laughter from tears and clarity from confusion..
love you tgin *muaks*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRAT!its too much of a coincidence that you and min have the same birthday...over the years ive begun to appreciate you for who you truly are, and i know i dont say it much but i have always been quietly proud of you...don't be so lost and confused,alright, i get tired of telling you that over and over again *wink*


this post super emo leh O_O

spread some love

my cousin, Norman, detests anime.

soooooOOoooo.....to spread a little valentine's day love, i decided to put a HUGE ASS picture of this particular anime up as a testimonial...


the reason why i chose this anime is because all the cousins were watching it the other day back in kupuok and he kept on criticising it and telling anyone (who would listen) that he hates hates HATES anime...soooOOooOOoooooo...... i wanna give it to him as a testimonial on his friendster page..hehe..

aww...norm? say you'll approve it okay? *grin*

haw haw haw haw

my friends and i had this obsession with haw flakes. no thanks to kusha who kept on buying them from udaocean.. eating haw flakes kinda brought back lots of memories of our childhood, as i remember the pakcik at the canteen selling one roll for 20 cents.


pretty soon it was on everyone's table..pretty addictive to eat while lectures are going on especially since we always sit so so far behind


we were wondering what exactly are haw flakes, i mean its kinda sourish, and its thin..so i looked at the packaging and it said that haw flakes were made of...

.
.
.
.
.
.
.

"HAW"

what the haw hell is haw??



my supply had finished and i saw this on joycey's table...i was about to take from her when suddenly..

there are a few things that

PEOPLE ABSOLUTELY DON'T GET

1. i am of a mixed parentage. dad's a chinese, mom's a bidayuh.
i find it rather annoying when people come and talk to me in fast chinese dialects, and then when i say that i can't understand a word they're saying, they give me a look that clearly says
"oh. another banana."

2. i am NOT from Sarawak, neither am i a Sarawakian.
well, if you're not sure, then instead of shouting out that i am one of the above, please exercise your right to remain silent :)

3. in Sarawak, people DO NOT live in trees.
i find it ridiculous that there are people who would still say the aforementioned statement. a classmate once asked me
"you went to Sarawak for Christmas, so, how, do you all still live in trees?"
so funny huh,this question? apparently it was since he burst out laughing after that. i got so annoyed i hufily replied
"we obviously don't so please go find something else to say since that statement has gotten very,very,very VERY old."
a cousin was once asked this question and he replied
"yes, we live in the biggest redwood" damn lazy to layan already la liddat.

4. there are other races besides Melayu, Cina and India.
the category "Lain-lain" is way much bigger then you think.


5. this is for the i-dunno-what-is-wrong-with-you-people
the cousin was telling me about this conversation he had with a friend in Kl the other day. his friend was asking him how did he go to sarawak for the holidays
"take plane la, duh!"
"eh?not bus uh?"

so damn stupid, really. its so so stupid its not even funny anymore.

so i've finally did it

i have always wanted to get one of those chatboxes to put on my site, so i did it, finally after seeing this really cute one on sue ann's blog.
see how it goes,depending on my fickle mindedness of the contents in my blog perhaps il take it down after a while..hm..
talk to me, ya'll *wink*

please come to my wedding

yesterday, i msged a friend of mine whom i got to know through MapleStory. funny thing, we ended up being really good friends and still keep in touch eventhough we hardly play the game anymore..he is working as a supervisor at a site in penang, so i just asked him how he was doing and all that.

it was close to midnight and he told me that he was still working O_O""

poor thing la, so late also still supervising meh, summore complain that it is boring...when i asked him why he wanna work so hard, the boy replied:

"i work hard so that i can save money, and my wife dont have to worry"

WAHLAU !!!
O_O""""""""

he just only turned 19, you know. AND he is already thinking about the comfort of his future wife...
so terharu because still got this type of lelaki, i asked

"wah...who are you planning to marry, treat her so good?"

he then said

"yeah, as a matter of fact, im getting married on the 29th of this month, can you attend,please?"

friend,you think i was born yesterday hah *narrows eyes*

"ei..february where got 29! don't always bluff me la!"

he then replied

"why are you so clever? can't you just pretend you are stupid and say you will attend?"

feeling a bit irritated i then shot back

"why la!?"

to which he replied

"because if you don't attend, i can't marry... because you re the one who is going to be my wife, if you don't attend i don't know who im going to get married to..."

can i not balik kampung, please?

i'm gonna be brutally honest.
i HATE dislike chinese new year.
i dislike going back to Sitiawan, and sitting in the car for 3 hours plus.
its usually so, so hot on the way there because as you know, highways DON'T have trees so the sun rays can be pretty brutal. furthermore, since everyone is rushing to go back home, it wouldn't entirely be an easy breezy journey.
but that is just a small portion of why i dislike the upcoming festivities.

my problem here is that i am related to certain people, people, who i feel have been looking down on me ever since i can remember. i don't know what it is with these people, aren't they family? you don't make a member of your family feel this way!
perhaps it all boils down to the chinese mentality, the fact that you need MUST get straight A's in order to make everyone happy and succeed in life. in this family, i've always felt as though i am THE black sheep because i am the only one who does not get 1st in class, the only one who does not get straight A's, the only one who frankly doesn't give a damn. what are they trying to portray? what are they trying to teach their children? to look down on those who don't memorize as well as they do? to bitch about another persons inability to score? what? do all chinese familes behave this way? my family in sarawak don't, and i am so so thankful that at least i have one side who treats me like i belong.

the only reason why i tolerate it is because of my grandparents. in fact, the one person i do look forward to is my grandfather because he is the only one that has treated me with kindness. sometimes, i don't even bother talking to my cousins, because among the cousins in this side of the family, i am the 2nd eldest so can be considered as "too old" already. i do have cousin brother who is if i am not mistaken, 3 years elder and i have a cousin sister who is one year younger. ah, one yer younger, and you know what this means... she is always the one i am being compared to, even if she is ONE YEAR YOUNGER.
you think about it. over there, what does she do?
tuition tuition tuition.tv.tuition tuition tuition. piano practice. tuition tuition.
COME ON of course your life there is different from my life here right? unlike you, i got OTHER things to do as well! so don't bloody fucking compare!
there was once i remember that it was after my SPM exams, and results only comes out in march or something like that... i remember going back for new year and i said that some papers were bit tough... you knw what that arrogant, cocky cousin of mine said?

"huh? oh i got a copy of the papers, close one eye also can do"

uh? really?good for you, now please go fuck off.

i remember once my aunt deliberately gave a present to my brother in front of me just because he got 1st in his class. how do i know it was deliberate? cuz she gave me this look at the corner of her eye after she said that. how not to hate the new years when all these things happens?

its a bit sad sometimes because there isn't much to do there also. they don't have astro, and my grandparents house has no form of entertainment whatsoever... so for chinese new year, i'll be watching either tv1, tv2, tv3, 8tv and channel 9.
during the afternoons when time goes by too too slowly, il either sleep, read, or study.
seriously.
i bring my textbooks with me because il be so bored with absolutely nothing to do, that il study.
a bit sad right?


so.

il be looking forward to a happy chinese new year.

so benci

when its hot
*go and turns on the aircon*

it seems to me like everyone is falling sick nowadays, i myself had just recovered from slight swelling in my throat. *thinks* no, i wouldn't say it was a sore throat, because it didnt hurt all the time but when it did, it really really hurt... besides my doctor told me it was swollen, and if i had a sore throat, she would say that instead now, isnt it?

kusha told me that she stayed in bed the whole day but got up constantly to take a shower as she was feeling so hot with fever
"when i took my shower, the cold water became warm water as it goes down my body"
wah. O_O"""
you are a heating element now izzit *aduh*

dad is not well either, and as all sick people are, he is pretty grumpy so im just meeky hiding in my room and only tiptoing downstairs to the kitchen to get a bite or a sip.

still feeling emo abit from missing the boyfriend.
but its better then being sick, i guess..

the boyfriend and i #3

i've not seen him for a week and i really want to see him again. because i knw that after chinese new year our schedules will be so tight, with his training and my revision.
its a bit difficult to meet up sometimes because he stays at the other end of town, so we usually spend lots of time together when we do acually see each other.
but still...i miss him, and i just want to spend time with him again

KUSHA

......has nothing better to do.
while at Etnik waiting for our nasi goreng to come, she decided to unknowingly snap pictures of me

i was restless, ok!
waiting for your lunch after an especially dull evidence class is no fun!!

dull?
yeah, EVIDENCE class, the one class that actually discusses sordid cases, DULL.
why?
its all in the presentation, i think. my lecturer isa nice guy but when he tutors us, its so...DULL.
ok i need to stop saying dull
DULL DULL DULL DULL DULL
stopitstopit

he will be like..
"blablablabla (inserts 3 second pause) blablablablabla. (pause again) blablablablabla (pause pause pause) blablablabla. (pause) blabla? (at this point, i'll be asking my friend "eh, whats the question again?") blablabla (pause) blablabla (pause pause pause) bla"

SERIOUSLY!
he pauses so much , i feel that there is a comma after every word in his sentence...
ive heard of fast talking lecturers where students actually tell them to slow down but this is ridiculous.

something akin to this
"the burden, of proof, is, the obligation, which, rests, on a, party... in, relation, to a, particular issue, of, fact in... a civil, or, criminal case, and must be discharged, if... that party, is, to win, on that issue... in question..."

abit too slow!

unlike in land, my lecturer is SUPER fast, and we all are so alert during her class. when she dictates especially, dont play play man...you pause for a moment and thats it la ;P

that,is not dull at all. :D

split right down the middle

oh....
tried and tried and tried so so hard to understand Question 2, May 2002 Zone A.

"Does section 78 of the Police and Criminal Evidence Act 1984 enable judge to exclude improperly obtained evidence where the reliability of the evidence has not been affected by the way in which it was obtained?"

i read that question over and over and over

and i still couldn't get it.

i really don't know what's gotten into me. its not that i suddenly have lost all sense of responsibility whatsoever and decide not to do my assignments anymore, its just that its so technical, and when things get technical, geri gets...confused...

sometimes i really really want to hand in a good assignment instead of slogging last minute and passing up a half-cooked job. i get no sense of satisfaction whatsoever, but i do it so that i wont get into trouble cuz "i did pass up after all". so what actually is the priority here? to hand in an assignment on time and doing it simply or to take your time to hand in a good assignment? i admit, i have done that on many occssions, and just hentam only, but when it comes to evidence, i realised that i just could not do it.

simply because, i know nothing about what i am suposed to write.

so how to hentam?!

usually each essay is supposed to be done in 45 minutes but that is after you've known your stuff, and there is no need for references. i usually try to read up before i do a particular assignment so that i can at least try to understand what it is i am writing about. and that takes time *cry*

so back to the question at hand (one of 3 assignments for Evidence, all also requiring reading first *crycrycrycrycrycry* ) i decided to refer to my trusted friend, Mr Christopher Allen.


like a good girl, i highlighted the issues, re-read a statement twice if i didn't understand, you know, the usual stuff..

was i so aggressive and engrossed in what i was doing until i didnt know that my book got injured in the process?

split right in the middle summore.
and i still haven't begun to write the opening sentence for my essay yet.

geri's take on feminism

i realised that no matter how much feminism plays a role in the society today, there will always be this silent fear about what a woman may experience if she happens to bump into the wrong type of people. i see the news about rape, about snatch theft, about abduction and about murder and most of the victims are female.

what is it about us, that makes us so weak?

sometimes when i want to go to the nearest store to get a few items, i hesitate when i have to go alone, and usually when i can walk there i prefer to drive instead. last time when i walk by the guard house, there would be this one guard that disturbs me, and i hate that. i mean, you are employed to be a guard so what the hell are you doing disturbing the residents whom you are supposed to be guarding?

it just does not make sense, even as i walk into centerpoint, there will be this one guy who will always whistle or make some kissing noises whenever i walk past. how can i avoid him? he is working in the first shop there. cant these men just keep quiet and not make a sound whenever a girl walks by?

there are many times when i wish i could just scream at all these men. these useless assholes who have no sense of respect whatsoever for women. i feel fear whenever i see a guy on a motorcycle coming towards my direction, no, i feel fear whenever i hear a motorcycle coming.

there was once, i just got out of my car in front of MY own home and there were these bunch of kids walking by, around 16 or 17 yrs old.and i heard them say
"wah besar-nye tetek"
in front of my mother and in front of my sister.
these stupid, insensitive bloody uneducated boys who have no respect at all for other people, who don't even care about what the other person may feel should seriously be punished severely. i wish i could just slap them with all the hatred and anger i was feeling at that time, crime or no crime. if we do not correct them now then when? when a crime has already been done? when someone has been hurt? when someone has been killed? perhaps im'm taking this too far to say that something like that may arise, but frankly speaking, in this world today, where men and women are considered to be equals, we are still treated with lots of disrespect, especially from these narrow minded people.

what really pisses me off is when such a crime occurs and the blame is placed unto the victim. you have MEN saying "oh its her fault for wearing such provocative dressing" or things like "women are like meat, if you leave it exposed, you don't blame the cats for eating it right?"

i've heard of PREGNANT women being raped. elderly ladies. were they dressed provocatively?
i've heard of women who were wearing decent attire being raped. her fault is it,now?
these MEN who blame women can't seem to see beyond anything else, they dont have the guts to admit that it is THEM who are unable to control themselves.so blame it on the "weaker" sex, uh?

those people in authority, dont they see what is going on?
sometimes in schools also, where such sexual teasings occur, the school don't do anything about it.
i have a friend who is very well endowed, and she used to walk with a slouch just so that no one will pay attention to her. during recess, sometimes we share the canteen with the 4th and 5th formers. and usually the ones who will be talking about her will be the malay guys sitting near our table.
"WAH BESAR NYE TETEK... AKU PUN DAH NAIK"
as a prefect, what could i do? in a boy's school the girl prefects were not really supposed to reprimand the boys, but i just couldn't stand it, and i walked over to that table and glared at him until he shut up. what can i really do, i mean, if i were to open my mouth, i am, frankly outnumbered there. even as a person in authority i was, to a certain extent rather helpless. but i did try my best.

i really hope that one day, the laws will be modified so that women will be better protected. i hope that those in authority, will understand the little trials that we have to go through everyday, that feeling of paranoia that engulfs us all sometimes. i hope that those in authority will stop squabbling over petty petty stuff which seems so inconsequential in the large picture and look at the root of the problems when it comes to sexual crimes. i hope that women will no longer be the one that the blame falls upon and that education to respect the different sexes starts from the very first time a child is educated.

i hope that the term "equality between the sexes" is trully personified, with no exceptions, no 'buts' and no conditions.

happy birthday GOPI

thanks for lunch at midvalley,

it was so unelievably HOT that day yo

happy 22nd!

annoying brat

today on friendster, i received a friend request.

and its from a stranger i know.

this stranger is a she.

i found out that she called MY boyfriend last week, because

she just broke up with HERS.

AND

tried to get herself a NEW boyfriend.

MY boyfriend got the hint

AND

told her

he is not interested

so the question here is

why does she want to add me,when i obviously do not know who she is?

want to see my profile is it?

cuz its first degree.

so sibuk for what!

kids these days.

didn't your mummy tell you

not to take something that already belongs to someone else?

the boyfriend and i #2

the boyfriend is unwell.
the poor dear has to sleep so early today, and im worried for him.
fever, a sore throat. whats that?
early signs of influenza?

lately i can't sleep well if the boyfriend falls asleep first. i need my goodnights and sweet nothings before i can finally go to sleep. its just that theory of having him as the last person i think about before i sleep and the first that comes to mind when i wake up.

goodnight love.
hope you feel better in the morning

is it possible to be doing 5 things at one time?
to blog
to do an assignment
to catch up with old friends
to read blogs
to do references

sigh.
the tummy's growling, its past 12.
when was the last time i ate?
7.
so its abt 5 hours.
no wonder it growls.

i hate to be up at this time of the night morning.
its so quiet, and i can hear the crickets playing their music, to liven up the deadly silence of the night
the fan that goes round and round and the tap-tap-tap of the keyboard.

my best friend told me that its pretty lonely there in ireland.
and i wish i could be there so that it would not be so lonely after that.
money is a bit of a problem, so she tries to scrimp and save wherever and whenever.
but she takes care of herself, so she still looks like a million euros :)
and im so proud of her for doing so.

UGH
the more i change the layout, the more i hate it
hate it
hate it
HATE IT

pleaseeeeeeeee
can somebody help meeeeeeeee

*thinks*
i have a cousin who is an aspiring fashion designer
i also have a cousin who is a web designer
not forgetting the cousin who is studying graphic design





so why can't i ask all of em to help me? *rubs hands in glee*
waitaminit, the fashion designer has already made me some baju
and the web designer has given me lent me the photoshop cd
i have designed my own layout before but still....... i got bored of it and i wanted to try the "minimalist" approach and yet...i am still not satisfied...
now all i need to do is get some help from the graphic designer cousin
HAH
yeah right
asking him for help is like...erm
drawing water from dry stone
lol
ok ok not that bad..
but still!

just sabar only la
*pfft*

holiday shots

the only time when i actually play and cuddle with cats is when i go back to my grandma's house. maybe cuz the cats in sarawak are friendlier, eh? i dunno.. in my neighbourhood there used to be a problem with the cats cuz they were always coming into the houses and causing havoc...and have you gotten a whiff of cats poo?

smells like shit. O_o"""""
there are 3 cats in the house, and ALL three of em are so spoilt beyond words..

the first kitty i saw was Jojo, and she was the one who was initially allowed to come into the house since she belonged to a cousin of mine..and since she was the ONLY cat allowed to be in the house, all the younger cousins pampered her like mad. seriously.
when she is eating
when she is sleeping
when she needs to go poo
when she wants to be alone
there will always be someone who will pick her up to play with her.
if i were her sure i tension
Jojo got fed up, and she became violent on the third day i was there...NO one could pick her up without getting scratched...

so....the younger cousins went to look for another cat to torture play with

Jojo had two siblings, and they initially were not allowed to come into the house. so as a result, Jojo didn't want to recognise them as her siblings, and she will hiss at them if they tried to come into the house...
but since Jojo refused to be pampered, guess who replaced her?

Salem and Luna :D

among all the cats, which was my favourite?
Salem.
he looks as though he has a moustache which incidentally reminds me of Hitler, so for few days i was calling him Hitler whenever i saw him.
such a non cute name for such a cute kitty T_T"
was talking to the cousin the other day, and he picked Salem up and said
"i want to call this, Puma"
HAH?
"your sisters named it Salem leh"
"i brought the cats back so i will name it whatever i want!"
hm
Puma?
nah...
so i, decided to help the black kitty with its identity crisis
Salem+Puma=?
Sa-Puma-Lem
:DD

LOL
all the younger cousins were calling Salem/Puma
Sapumalem *laughs hysterically*
LOL

kesian the kitty

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we had a trip to this beach in Sematan but unfortunately it was windy and cloudy and rained constantly...

before the trip, amy told me that it'll be really really hot, so we should wear something cooling
YEAH RIGHT

i was so damn damn cold that night, no thanks to the weather

you are never too young for a heart to heart talk

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when is the moment, you know that you have made it?

when others are wearing YOUR colour :DD

i was asked
"why didn't you wear something thats orange in colour also?"
and the simple reply was
"i wouldn't have stood out,if i did"

:D

sometimes, when you are lucky, everyone in a picture poses perfectly...

but, there are moments where you'd have a certain someone who doesn't!

weird cousin #1

weird cousin #2

2 guys,a girl and a movie date

on friday, the cousin, the brother and i went for a dinner and movie at the Curve.

told the cousin

"be at my house by SEVEN ok!"

and he replied

"okay, no probs!" (he sounds really,really salah when he says that)

but he ended up arriving THIRTY FIVE MINUTES LATE.

grrstupididiotmakemewaitsolong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"WHY SO LATE?!"

"jam-ma... hehe.."

grr thats why i told you to be at my house at seven so that you will leave your house earlier *growls*

first time seeing a toilet symbol,hence the jakun-ness

guys, typically get distracted by the most weirdest of things...the cousin was so distracted that he actually nearly walked into the ladies toilet when we arrived...the ladies who were near the entrance were talking about him after that and it took great willpower to not burst out laughing...

anyways we couldnt decide which movie to watch so the brother was enthusiastically suggesting

"PATHFINDER!"

and then proceeded to tell us about how its really good, its produced by the same people who did The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion,The Witch and The Wardrobe,so it should be good, look at the quality of the directing.... blablablablablablablablablabla *spaces out*

o_O

O_o

O_O

yeah, okay, whatever lah =.=""""

i wanted to watch Ghost Cinderella since it was some scary korean show and since we'd be watching it really late, it should be kinda fun...

the brother and i couldn't agree on the movie so we turned to the cousin

with narrowed eyes and crossed arms (ok,i'm exaggerating) we asked him to choose

"er.." he replied in his usual blur and lost manner..

"anything la!"

told him to make a decision, and the cousin decided on......

*rolls eyes*

but actually, it was a good choice cuz i dont think i'll be able to sleep if i had my way...

so super hungry, i felt like ordering everything on the menu when we went to have dinner...

"hah?! you want everything, ok, order all la!"

"celaka, don't have to layan until so insulting leh T_T"

and proceeded to order some fried rice

heheee.....i was the one who didnt finish my food after that LOL

the movie?

*sigh*

not exactly the best one i've seen, so i was kinda disappointed when it ended...the poster looked really good though, but perhaps they didnt have enough time to fit in all the scenes cuz throughout the show, i felt as though they were jumping all over the place.my brother had the "WTH?" look on his face throughout the whole movie *sticks tongue out* thats why la, go recommend this show summore leh..

when the movie finished the brother still had that look on his face

"i really can't tell the difference between a good movie and a bad movie, honestly...was that a bad movie?

the cousin brother retorted

"yeah..DUH!"

LOL

the brother wanted to watch another movie after that and proceeded to CONVINCE us (rather unsuccessfully) to watch Flyboys.

"i can tell, its a really good movie!"

the cousin and i replied

"THAT WAS WHAT YOU TOLD US BEFORE!"

jakun part 2: never seen a car window before

i am related to some really, really weird people.

i dont know what to buy for you

ok this is how i see it.
when a guys birthday comes up, you have to admit that getting them a present can prove to be rather tedious indeed, no?
what do you usually get a guy for his birthday, provided of course you don't break the bank in doing so?

1. shirt
2. cap
3. underwear
4. socks
5. hankies

ok thats enough,im falling asleep compiling that list.
am i just being totally unimaginative?
lets try again

1. necklace
2. book
3. keychain (the ones you can get from Room)
4. pen drive
5. belt
6. towels (i got them for gandhi)

WHAT ELSE?!

i really pity guys, i do.
with girls, the choices are endless, because you can get a relatively pretty item for not much.

i remember last year, it was Gopi's birthday and he told JoJo that he'd like boxers when asked about what present he wants.
"Boxers, M"
ok, so JoJo and Shaleni went to KLCC to buy his present, and since i was super dry that time,i asked them if i could share too.
so, these two went and according to them, it was their first time actually buying underwear for a guy...

=.=""""""

they took briefs, M, in an attempt to get in and out of that particular department as fast as possible. whether or not they knew it was briefs, and not boxers at that time, i honestly don't know..

when we gave Gopi the present, there was a surprised look on his face that said
"erm..M?"
anyways..later on when we asked him whether or not he liked it..

he replied
"when i wore it, it was tight, everywhere"

LOL

ok,ok,i'll get it right this time!

come and clean my pipes

usually, if i need to drink something hot, instead of milo or coffee, i'll take tea.
no sugar, no milk.

i like it black, and i like it strong.

however, there was no more tea in the house and everyone has been way too busy to restock on the usual groceries, so in want of tea, i decided i'll try the detox teas which my dad had bought earlier BUT was left unfinished in a destitue solitary corner.

dad said he didnt like the taste, and that it made him feel all weird in the tummy the next day after he drank it.

i was thinking to myself

"duh, DETOX tea..its suposed to cleanse your system, innit?"

so, out of desperation for some sort of tea, i drank it.it didnt taste that bad, provided you dont look at the ingredients that went into making the tea.

the ingredients make me felt as if i was on an episode of Survivor or Lost

so i drank and i drank and i drank, and i felt better after drinking it cuz it really erm, *coughcough* cleansed my system..dad bought normal tea after that so when the usual stock was replenished, i drank my usual cuppa.

the stomach has been feeling pretty woozy for the past few days and two nights ago i experienced a sharp,painful,contracting sensation at my abdomen which made me feel as if i was going to die *drama*

went out with the boyfriend yesterday, to send an examination form to putrajaya and the stomach was not behaving itself. no, im not talking about bowel movement *gross* its just the sensation that all is not normal..

it was making so much noises, something similar to when your stomach is empty and it growls?
mine, it ROARED

i asked the boyfriend,
"was it loud?"
to which he replied
"yes"

stupid tea.

i want to have a TREE in my garden,

it need not be big or very tall,

if i can have a TREE in my garden,

i'd prefer it to be very small.

let me tell you about this thing called christmas

do you know how it SUCKS to have crappy internet connection?
ever since i got back from my christmas trip i have been unable to even look at my blog for orange's sake *GRRR*

i hope that everyone had a great christmas and a happy new year despite the weather *grins*

trying to cool off on christmas

honestly i didnt really feel at all that "christmassy" on christmas itself, probably because it was so so so hot and there were lots of washing up entertaining to do. it was so hot that my little cousins were not as active as they would normally be and some of them even snuck off to take a quick shower. this is probably the biggest irony as it started to pour heavily on the subsequent days, i guess perhaps the storm clouds heard us complaining about the heat and decided to present its christmas "gift" to us after that =.="

presents crowding around the christmas tree

usually the family will open the presents on the 26th, after dinner, that is. throughout the whole day i can see the cousins roaming around restlessly wishing that time will pass by quicker.
it was so funny because we had visitors on the 26th night, and they were just sitting around watching tv. my aunt had to go home already, along with my two cousins, but we protested and insisted that they stay long enough to open the presents. but how could we do so if there are visitors hanging around watching tv? they were not even indulging in any form of intelligent conversation, so to me i got the impression that they just came over to look at the telly. rather weird, dont you think?
so the aunties, being ingenious, started to make a big deal out of clearing up the table and getting all the cousins to sit on the floor to wait for gift distribution.
needless to say, they got the drift and left soon after that.
do i feel bad? yeah, of course i do, but come on, it think its just plain rude to go visiting and instead of conversing, you merely sit there and overstay your welcome. no offence or anything, but since we were entertaining so heavily on christmas day, i think its only fair that we think of ourselves on Present Day.

trying to get everyone to look at the same camera can be very tedious indeed

heres the formula.
lots of cousins+ lots of aunties & uncles= lots of presents.
time taken to distribute presents : 15 minutes
time taken to open presents : 5 minutes
ratio of presents per person = 8:1
lots of presents=lots of paper=lots of rubbish

the guys all got really useful items, i know for a fact that each of them got underwear :D *LOL*
my brother was like "WTH?!" when he received two boxes of underwear... *giggles*
i tell you, my family seriously damn weird. my sister CRIED when she found out my mom gave her a tamagotchi *rolls eyes* so emo meh...
well..i guess im no different, i did after all let out a gasp of delight after receiving a Guess purse from my mom *blush*

however, my delight turned to contemplation after i remembered that the boyfriend gave me a Roxy purse for Christmas.

.................................

which one should i use now??? *sobs*