its over

its over.
i dont ever want to think about one.
i dont ever want to think about the other.

enough of the games.
i feel as lonely as hell now.
but its way much better than crying myself to sleep.

ive deleted one off my list.
as for the other, i have change back to my old number so that i wont keep on looking at my phone hoping he texts me.

im trying so hard to be brave, you know? but i really feel as if ive lost all my best friends.
is it because there is something wrong with me?

or what? is it because ive always blurred THAT line?

but you cant help it if you feel what you feel.

im trying so hard to be a big girl, and not cry about it.
but i try
and i try
and i try
and i try
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but i cant hold it in anymore.
it hurts so much when the person you use to turn to is the person you have to avoid in order to make things right for yourself again.

pain is especially difficult to bear when you are on your own.