oneorangecow

there are days where i feel so lost,so helpless, so useless. have you ever felt that way?
i feel like just staying in bed, hidden under my covers with a bottle of water and tissues to wipe away the silent tears that continues to fall and fall...
the problem with me is that i tend to overthink, and i guess my dilemmas are self created...i do have people to talk to but sometimes i know how it is like to be on the other end,listening to another persons problems and i dont want to seem as if i am being a burden.so what do i do?
i keep it all inside, bottled up. suffer silently, and wait for the phase to be over so that i'll be free of this mental exhaustion.its rather tiring to be depressed and not let it out because there is so much negative energy which is being held up...
sometimes i don't tell the boyfriend what is happening becase i dont want him to feel as if he has this problematic girlfriend who over-emo at times...but if i don't tell him, then who do i talk to? my life supports are in UK, Ireland, Paris..

the more i think about upcoming exams, the more petrified i become.i have been unable to fall asleep easily lately, and my days get shorter and shorter...am i stressed out because of exams? no, not really.this is my problem, i dont even know what it is that is making me so upset.



best for me to stay under my blanket with the lights off and fall asleep when i can no longer handle the exhaustion and the toll it is taking on me